<3

Wed, 26 May 2004 02:21:35 GMT

i have a new lj now. if i wanted you to have the username, id add you. <3

goodbye dreamskickass, it's been fun.

Tue, 25 May 2004 22:48:49 GMT

what the fuck dude. 25 days and i'm off house arrest. i'm so hurt. i found out who my true friends are. i don't know what to say! i hope this passes soon.

death would be so much easier.

Mon, 24 May 2004 18:55:24 GMT

+ Ashley, Will & Myke stayed the night.
+ Today in school I wore a skirt, it was very pretty.
+ I have court tommorow :-D finalize this shit.
+ Oh my, my mom lets Will take the car now..
+ Me and Will went grocery shopping. We ate at the place, and went to the mall, and about 484393 other places.
+ We got home & have still been sitting here. I fell asleep.
+ I FUCKING LOVE YOU MEREDITH! <3 ...so beautiful.

Sun, 23 May 2004 06:58:32 GMT

today was pretty damned cool, but yet sooo fucked up. i loved every single second of it. josh, chelsea, ashley, britt, shanny, jenny, chris, george, brandon, and steve came over. hahaha. we all sat here, a couple of them were drunk, britt & brandon kept fucking in my sisters bed.. me and everyone else kept laughing at stupid shit, we drank ALOT of soda & ate ALOT of pizza. i'd say tonight was preeettyy damn fun. everyone went back to chelsea's, except josh.. cos' i couldn't handle them here anymore! teenage boys. wowwww i tell ya. yay! josh is home from his walk! i'll write soon!

haha, update at 6:35 am: everyone ended up coming back here. MEH. chelsea and steve.. UGH im so fucking pissed at chelsea. seriously, im not even gonna get into it. im hungry. im so happy everyones downstairs and AWAY FROM ME!

Sat, 22 May 2004 21:10:05 GMT

today's been great so far. i've just been hanging out with chelsea and will... julie came over for a little while and we all went up to taco bell and ate inside:) just like a happy family! then we went through a car wash. then i came home, me and chelsea smoked a can haha, and we just sat here. now, i'm waiting for her to come back. i miss her dearly!!! i think josh is comin' over. well, i'm gonna go get dressed.

Fri, 21 May 2004 16:16:34 GMT

yep, i'm just hanging out @ chelseas. i'm s'posed to be at school, but i got special permission to come home. heh. today i'm going to the fair with chad levett. yayy! well, not just me and chad, a couple other people, too. but i'm excited to see him, ya know? soo right now i'm just sitting here, i just finished printing out all 743625 pages of jamsines book project. YEAH JAMSINE. I LOVE YA. THAT'S WHY I DID THIS FO' YA ASS. today me and jam were in the vps together just ch-ch-chillin'. "would he wobble after me?." yeah, i'm too gay for school. j' fuckign adore chaddy. he's the best, nothin' less. hmm, what else. oh, I LOVE YOU CHELSEA. this girl doesn't know what she means to me:( she is my entire world in one beautiful human. ehhhhh. enough about this, i betta go hang out with clynn:-*

Wed, 19 May 2004 17:48:23 GMT

VANESSA DIERKS I FREAKING LOVE YOU!!!!!

-Today Me And Chad, and Chelsea And Josh hung out by the river,, ON a cliff. :D it was very FUN! we all ended up kissinG eachother for kicks lol..It was fun for the most Part. HI CHELSEA I FRACKING LOVE U.

im gonna Go hang out with Joshy. <3

Tue, 18 May 2004 19:06:47 GMT

today was OK. tommorow i'm hanging out with myke.. hes one of the best people i know. he told me i need to start hanging out with some real men, lol. alot of other stuff happened, but im hungry so ill type it all tommorow!!.. it's good. well.. bye:)

Mon, 17 May 2004 18:58:53 GMT

today was cool:D i walked outta my health class, but that's a story of its own.. i'm gonna be at chelseas for a while. will stayed the night last night. let's see, what else.

i love ashley alinda fulmer

me, chad, and trenton hung out today, i was being mean to chad, but he was being... different. like josh. well, i'm sick so i'm gonna go. and that's all.

Sun, 16 May 2004 05:20:07 GMT

tonight was okay:)
hung out with ashley and we went to the mall and dennys.

came home and realized how lucky i am to have a friend like chelsea lynn pitre. i love her so much. she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. and god she's so beautiful!!! okay, i'm a sap.

i can't wait until schools over. i'm so glad i'm leaving general brown, and takin' all my friends with me. i like days like this. they make me happy.

i have 6 dollas to my name, and nowhere to go:(

you know who i don't appreciate enough?... chad delong. he puts up with my bullshit all the time, and never gets mad at me. i fucking love him, he's the most amazing guy i've ever met. we can just sit there and laugh about the stupidest shit.. and i love it. i'd go InSaNe without that boy. and he doesn't even realize how much he means to me.. because i'm always so mean. THANK U FOR EVERYTHING CHAD. U GIVE ME THE BEST ADVICE EVA.. and i love you kid. :D

oh,,,, i'm gonna go now. <3 to my drankas and smokas.

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Basics
Name:	keva
Nickname(s):	none.
What do you wish your name was?:	i wish i was a boy, and my name was shane.
Are you going to change your name?:	no..
Siblings:	jasmine & rianna, nicole- too.
Parents' jobs:	aww. parents :(
Appearance
Natural hair colour:	brown
Hair colour now:	brown!
Natural eye colour:	hazel
Contacts/glasses?:	nope.
Height:	5"5
Weight:	i don't know anymore.
Clothes size:	lol, i dont know.
Shoe size:	8
Piercings:	bellybutton, nose, and places on my ear.
Tattoos:	none, never.
Sex
Are you a virgin?:	yeah
Age when you lost your virginity:	14
Sex partners so far:	none because im a virgin! yay.
Favourite position:	none.
Least favourite position:	none...
Opinion on fuckbuddies:	sure:)
Do you have a fuckbuddy?:	uh, nope.
Did you ever?:	yes
Are you going to?:	yes
Do you like porn?:	yes
Places
Country you're in now:	USA
Country you want to be in now:	USA
Countries you've been in before:	USA
Countries you want to visit:	germany & france.
Favourites
Colour:	brown
Flower:	jasmine
Gemstone:	emerald
Pet:	none
Animal:	none
Bird:	none
Alcoholic drink:	i dont know this one
Non-alcoholic drink:	dont know.
Food:	idk.
Book:	idk.
Movie:	idk.
Person, and why?:	bili-jo gokey, because.. hell, i dont know.
Actor:	none
Actress:	none
5 bands:	brand new, bright eyes, bush, nirvana, foo fighters
Swear word:	cunt
Either/or
Cherry coke or vanilla coke:	vanilla
Vodka or tequila:	vodka
Drunk or stoned:	stoned
Alcohol or drugs:	drugs
Hyper or chilled out:	chill
Party or nightclub:	party
Club or pub:	club
Happy or sad:	sad

my life brought to you by BZOINK!

Sat, 15 May 2004 05:45:59 GMT

hello. im writing this in the dakr. everyone is parssed out but me. me and corey and jaymz and chels ea all got fucke dup. i'm bnored so i'm writing on this thing. ahahaha you gotta see this. it's so funny.

painted secerets: hey im fucked
painted secerets: yes im at kevas
painted secerets: im black

omg i love jaymz this kid is too cool for me. uhhh chelsea needs to wake up but shes not oging too. i cant remeber when she evern got here... but i love her and i think shes great. ahhh idk what to sya, i'm just so god damned bored. OH! tommorow i'm going to bili-jos... thats sooo gerat! i missed her so fucking much!!!!!!! i love her. well, i'm gonna go find my black friend jaymz.:)

(edit- rotfl. what in all gods name? okay, last night was a little crazy. anyway today me & mom went all over the fucking place. she is so cool sometimes. we were singing hot in here really loud with the windows down and everyone was looking @ us. we stopped at a parade and mcdonalds, and a couple other places. anyway, i'm getting ready to go to bili-jos. yay! bye bye)

Thu, 13 May 2004 20:35:12 GMT

i liked today. i liked today because i was a bitch to everyone. i liked today because i hung out with my new caseworker, and she bought me tempo blue shield nike shin gards for soccer. i liked today because i got a toy at burger king. i loved today, because i hung out with chelsea, and i love her to pieces. i liked today because tommorow... i'm wearing an american eagle skirt. i liked today because i didn't get written up. i liked today because... okay, i'll shut the fuck up now.

i didn't like today because I FUCKING HATE 95% OF GENERAL BROWN, it's not like anyone does anything to me, i'm just sick, sick fucking siiick of little girls and boys... can i get a HELL YEAH WHOOP SOME ASSES YO.

well.. i believe i'm going to the mansion now to hang out with some idiots and william.. oh, and BY THE WAAAY- i'm cutting my hair tonight. hahahahahha.. YAY!

Wed, 12 May 2004 20:01:58 GMT

today i realized i am lost. i don't know what the fuck i'm doing. and it more then sucks. i remember when i used to think i wish someone understood me, knowone listens, knowone cares. i still think that, but i have come to realize that when i try to talk to someone, when i try to have someone see who i really am, when i explain my life, cutting, EVERYTHING. they are just puzzled, and say what i want to hear. i wish.. i hope someone soon will figure me out. oh well, moving on.

i despise school. i hate every single person in our school, with an exeption of about 3 or 4 people. i hate how fake everyone is, and how people just like me because i'm funny. i'm sick of school and i'm sick of a whhhoollleee fuckload of people.

i got my nose re-done. thats a +++. it looks very pretty & i'm happy with it now.

i'm afraid i'll get sent away again. if i do, i will run away to a friends house and slit my throat. i promise you that one... but it's NOT a likely possiblity AT ALL.

girls start drama. i wish i was a boy so bad it hurts:(

i love brownville. but we're moving somewhere.. not far away AT ALL. just so we can get away from the neighboors.. mom says she likes the country. people say this house is big, but living in it for so long, being on house arrest, and ALL that other shit combined together just makes me want to scream. this house is tiny, and i can't stand it.

well, there we go. my "i'mabigfuckingcuntshootmeplease" entry. i have anger issues, and i can't blame pmsing.

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*About Yourself- You know, the General Stuff*
Name?:	kevaaa
Birth date?:	1/25/90
Location?:	brownville.
Gender?:	female.
Eye color?:	brown
Hair color?:	red & brown, more red tho:):):)
Height?:	5'5
Body Structure?:	medium & peerty.
Hobbies?:	nothing, i'm a lazy bitch.
Interests?:	"
*A Little more in Depth*
What's your style?:	i have no "style":D
Favorite brand of clothing?:	it doesn't matter, as long as i like it.
Favorite brand of shoes?:	etnies
Do you wear make-up?:	yes, yes i do.
Why do you wear make-up? (to be goth? to be pretty? etc..):	because i like the look of makeup on me.
Do you do drugs?:	soemtimes.
Why do or why don't you do drugs?:	because at teh time i want too.
Do your friends do drugs?:	many of them, yeeah.
Does your family do drugs?:	nope.
Do you drink?:	yes.
If so, is it fun waking up with a hangover?:	i've actually never had one.. weird, eh?
If not, do you think its fun waking up with a hangover?:	...
What's your opinion on abortion?:	do it up.
What's your opinion on marriage?:	if it makes you happy.
Gay marriage?:	yessss!
How are your grades in school?:	they are aweful, i'm failing.
Do you have a job?:	nope.
Are you materialistic?:	yes
Would you die for true love?:	no, i wouldn't.
Sum yourself up in three words.:	funny, weird, gay
*Your Love Life*
Straight/Gay/Bi?:	bisexuality is pure
Are you crushing on someone right now?:	yes
Are you dating someone right now?:	no
Do you say you love them?:	if i was, i wouldn't be.
Do you know what love is? Really?:	no i don't.
Define your dream date.:	i don't have a dream date
Prefered hair color::	any
Prefered eye color::	darker colors
Prefered structure type::	i don't even care
Prefered height::	taller then me
Prefered style::	doesnt matter.
Prefered name::	hahahaahh
Prefered personality::	funny:)
Do you believe in true love?:	no... i don't.
Do you believe in soul mates?:	helll no.
Do you believe in destiny?:	no.
*What would you do IF...*
You found out your best friend was gay, and liked you a lot?:	it would depend on who it is, because i happen to like one of my best friends.
You found out you were going to die in three days?:	id kill myself sooner.
You found out your sig. other was cheating on you?:	i gives no fucks.
You found out your family was broke and needed to sell the house?:	i dont even know..
Everything you thought you knew was a lie?:	cry
Everyone around you was really an alien?:	everyone around me IS really an alien.
You won a million dollars?:	cry
Your friend was put in the hospital and could die?:	id see them soon
You found out your 12 year old sister was impregnated by a 78 year old man?:	rofl. my sister is 12, and id laugh histerically.
You loved two people and had to chose?:	i dont know...
Your true love died?:	see them soon.
*Almost Done*
Did you like this survey?:	not really.
Yeah, well SCREW YOU!:	do it yourself..

General Survey (Wishful Thinking) brought to you by BZOINK!

Tue, 11 May 2004 19:31:36 GMT

i was a bitch today. oh well. seriously, im sick of everyone in our school.. im switching to a cathlolic one.. my fucking nose ring fell out last night, so i'm going to get it re-pierced within the next hour. :) haha. i love me some cute girls and boys like meredith- dkjdfsjkfkjfd:)

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---About You---
What's your full name..:::	Keva Leilani Sutton
What's your b-day..:::	1-25-90
How old are you..:::	14
Where were you born..:::	hawaii
Where do you live now..:::	new fucking york.
How many siblings do you have..:::	3
What are their names..:::	jasmine, rianna, nicole.
What are your parent's names..:::	cindy & kevin.
---Favorites---
Color..:::	brown
Number..:::	none.
Food..:::	---
Singer..:::	i don't know really.
Rapper..:::	NoNe.
Band..:::	the cure.
Type of music..:::	anything.
Radio Station..:::	100.7
Song..:::	porcelain by the red hot chili peppers.
CD..:::	i don't knowww.
Channel..:::	"
Show..:::	"
Perfum..:::	"
Store..:::	"
---Friends---
Best Friends..:::	meh.
Loudest..:::	shanny
Quietest..:::	kelsey
Shyest..:::	alyssa
Most Outgoing..:::	dont even know
Most annoying..:::	..................jessica.
Tallest..:::	jamie.
Shortest..:::	kristen
Best guy friend..:::	chad
Best girl friend..:::	chelsea
Best friend overall..:::	..dont know
Weirdest..:::	all of them.
---Love Life---
Guys or Girls..:::	or
Are you straight..:::	no
Crush..:::	kinda
Who is it..:::	---
Single or Taken..:::	single.
Taken by who..:::	---
What base have you gotten to..:::	i cant remember what the bases are!!!
What song reminds you of your bf/gf..:::	none
What song was written about:	---
How many people have you kissed..:::	alot.
How many boyfriend/ girlfriends have you had..:::	not anything crazy, but i cant remember.
Ever been in love..:::	no
Who was the first person you made out with..:::	ewww. id HONESTLY rather not say!!!
---What do you think of when you hear---
Food..:::	yay
Friends..:::	yay
School..:::	BoOoOoO.
Crackers..:::	uhm. snoogy oogy.
Towels..:::	to cover my naked ass:)
Clothes..:::	offffff.
Eclipse..:::	car
Kool-Aid..:::	is nasty
Waves..:::	ocean
Curly..:::	my hair
Sugar..:::	sugarheart
Weird..:::	<3
Shoes..:::	off
Eyes..:::	are beautiful
Love..:::	sux
---Name Some Lyrics---
Chingy..:::
Simple Plan..:::
Hanson..:::
Justin Timberlake..:::
Brittany Spears..:::
Trapt..:::
Maroon 5..:::
Nelly..:::	I dont listen to anyone else.
Fountains of Wade..:::
Good Charlotte..:::
Jay-z..:::
Ludacris..:::
Snoop Dogg..:::
Stacie Orrico..:::
Blink 182..:::
The Ataris..:::
Adema..:::
Incubus..:::	Imagine your brain as a canister filled with ink yeah, now think of your body as the pen where the ink
Tupac..:::
---Which Ones Better---
Coke or Pepsi..:::	cocke
Chocolate or Vanilla..:::	vanilla
Rap or Rock..:::	rock
Music or TV..:::	music
Email or AIM..:::	AIM
Going to the movies or Shopping..:::	shopping
Making out or French Kissing..:::	i thought they were the same thing.
Walking or Running..:::	RUNNING!
---Last Section (Random)---
Are you bored..:::	naw, just fixing to go hang out wif chad.
Did you like my survey..:::	yes
What color is your hair..:::	red/brown
Righty or Lefty..:::	right
Who's at your house right now..:::	jamsine & rianna
What's your AIM sn..:::	painted secerets
Did you ever own a pet duck..:::	naw
What color is your room..:::	blue
What are you wearing right now..:::	a "enjoy coca-cola shirt" from thrifting today:):):) and some jeans
Have you ever stolen anything..:::	yes.
Who are you sending my survey to..:::	livejournal.
Glad it's over???..:::	MAYBE.

Long Survey... brought to you by BZOINK!

Mon, 10 May 2004 19:21:18 GMT

today was cool.. alot of people liked my nose:) i think i have a crush on someone.. his name is nick. (crowd of people say "awwwww")... i got called out of social studies & my probation officer told me to straighten the fuck up. ughhhh i hate this too much:(

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The Basics
Name?:	Keva
Sex?:	femmy
Birthday?:	1/25/90
Location?:	new york.
Height?:	5'5
Weight?:	130.
Hair Color?:	brown
Eye Color?:	brown
Social Life
Who is your best friend(s)?:	chrissy, julie, chelsea. idk.
Would you rather be alone, hangout with one other person, or in a group?:	in a group of people i love.
What would you consider a typical Friday nite?:	staying with someone, or them comin herre.
How often do you go out on the weekend? during the week?:	....meh.
Would you rather spend the day with your family or friends?:	friends. im sorry, but ever since i was born i was never "feelin'" my family.
Love Life
Are you single?:	yes ma'm.
If so, do u have a crush?:	yes
What is his/her name?:	uhh.. idk.
If not, what is his/her name?:	.
How long have you two been together?:	.
This or That
Night or Day?:	night
Cat or Dog?:	cat
Ugly and Sweet or Hott and Mean?:	ugly and sweet.
Hot or Cold?:	cold
Tall or Short?:	tall
Prep of Punk?:	suicide.
Winter or Summer?:	winter.
McDonalds or Burgerking?:	burgerking
Hard or Soft?:	hard
Yes or No?
Do you drink?:	yes
Have you ever gotten drunk?:	yes..
Do you smoke?:	yes..
Have you ever gotten high?:	yes..
Are you prude?:	i dont god damned know.
Are you a virgin?:	yes.
Are you smart?:	intelligent yes, smart. no.
Are you ugly?:	i dont think so.
Are you pretty?:	im not HIDEOUS.
Are you trustworthy?:	yes
Random
How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?:	i dont even know..
How many pairs of shoes do you have that actually fit?:	like, 2 or 3.
What size bra do you wear?:	i dont know anymore..
Have you ever colored your hair?:	yes
What pieces of jewlery do you wear everyday?:	my nose ring and such.
Do you have a cell phone?:	no.
Name three things you "can't live without":	uhh. nothing, i could live without everything.
Who do you talk to the most on aim? phone?:	1)hmm.. jamie. 2)whoeva.
What color(s) is your room?:	blue
Do you have a computer in your room?:	nope
What time do you usually go to bed? wake up?:	like 10, like 6:30.
What's your favorite clothes store?:	anything wiht good clothes!!!
Do you wear makeup?:	yes.
Do you paint your nails?:	not rlly.
What size shoe are you?:	8
Did you like this quiz/survey?:	i s'pose.

All About You!! brought to you by BZOINK!

Sun, 09 May 2004 23:23:40 GMT

you know what? you'd be so fucking gorgeous
if you'd just stop talking, quit breathing,and start
D E C O M P O S I N G

...today I went to dexter all day. i came back & thought about alot of things. like how i would like to stop hanging out with alot of people... i thought about how fucked up my life is, and how it will never change back. i hate this, and i dont know how ive delt with it for so fucking long. its got to stop soon.

me & ashley. the pictures all blurry.

Sat, 08 May 2004 20:51:41 GMT

i got my nose pierced today, chelsea got her bellybutton done, chelseas mom got her nose, and MY MOM got her nose. isjksdjksa. it hurt very much.. my eyes watered. :-[ im good though!

Fri, 07 May 2004 11:18:04 GMT

im sitting here waiting for the bus... i hope i dont have ISS all day today. uggghh that would fuckign SUCK! jsut because i said "what the fuck". what the fuck? that wouldnt be right. i dont think. oh, i forgot, i have to do my makeup and hair. boooooo. well, i might write tonight or sumodd. <3

Thu, 06 May 2004 18:52:58 GMT

i hate bitches!

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ABOUT YOU
Your full name::	Keva Leilani Sutton
Age::	14
Height::	5'5
Natural hair colour::	red/brown
Eye colour::	brown
Number of siblings::	3
Glasses/contacts?::	nope.
Piercings::	yes'm. bellybutton, nose, ears & such.
Tattoos::	none. never. blah.
Braces?::	nope. i want them sooo bad though!
FAVOURITE
Colour::	brown
Band::	the cure
Song::	you know your right.
Stuffed animal::	mr pillow, not a stuffed animal.. a pillow.
Video game::	none.
TV show::	whose line is it anyway.
Movie::	dont know anymore
Book::	annies baby
Food::	none.
Game on a cell phone::	idk.
CD cover::	uhh- dont know.
Flower::	jasmine
Scent::	salt water
Animal::	none
Comic book::	none
Cereal::	none
Website::	www.livejournal.com
Cartoon::	none
DO YOU
Play an instrument?::	nope.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?::	no..
Like to sing?::	yesssss!
Have a job?::	nope..
Have a cell phone?::	nope.
Like to play sports?::	yes:)
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	noo...
Have a crush on someone?::	kinda.
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?::	no
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?::	we have, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. yep 5.
Have any special talents/skills?::	uhh, not rlly.
Excercise daily?::	nope.
Like school?::	yes
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?::	nopeee
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?::	yes
Speak any other languages?::	not really
Go a day without food?::	yes
Stay up for more than 24 hours?::	yes
Read music, not just tabs?::	no
Roll your tongue?::	yes
Eat a whole pizza?::	no
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?::	yes
Cried to get out of trouble?::	yes
Gotten lost in your city?::	nnnnnooo
Seen a shooting star?::	yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states?::	no
Had a serious surgery?::	not really.
Stolen something important to someone else?::	nope
Solved a rubiks cube?::	nope.
Gone out in public in your pajamas?::	yes
Cried over a girl?::	yes
Cried over a boy?::	yes
Kissed a random stranger?::	no
Hugged a random stranger?::	yes
Been in a fist fight?::	yes
Been arrested?::	yes
Done drugs?::	yes
Had alcohol?::	yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::	yes
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?::	yes
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?::	nope.
Swore at your parents?::	haha just now actually.
Been to warped tour?::	noo
Kicked a guy where it hurts?::	many a time
Been in love?::	i dont think so
Been close to love?::	i dont know, thats a stupid question. how would someone know?
Been to a casino?::	nope
Ran over an animal and killed it?::	no
Broken a bone?::	no
Gotten stitches?::	no, but i've had my head superglued. meep.
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?::	idk
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?::	no
Made homemade muffins?::	yes
Bitten someone?::	yes
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?::	yes
More than 5 times?::	no
Been to niagra falls?::	no
Burped in someones face?::	ewww. no.
Gotten the chicken pox?::	yes. it was good.
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth::	today
Went to the bathroom::	idk?
Saw a movie in theaters::	saturday
Read a book::	dont know
Had a snow day::	dont know
Had a party::	dont know
Had a slumber party::	dont know
Made fun of someone::	today. yeah, i'm a cunt.
Tripped in front of someone::	can't member.
Went to the grocery store::	donno.
Got sick::	don ot know
Cursed::	FUCK. now.
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables::	fruit
Black/white::	black
Lights on/lights off::	lights off
TV/movie::	tv
Car/truck::	car
Body spray/lotion::	body spray:)
Cash/check::	check
Pillows/blankets::	pillows
Headache/stomach ache::	headache
Paint/charcoal::	paint
Chinese food/mexican food::	chinese
Summer/winter::	winter
Snow/rain::	snow
Fog/misty::	fog
Rock/rap::	rock
Meat/vegetarian::	meat.
Boy/girl::	girl
Chocolate/vanilla::	chocolate
Sprinkles/icing::	icing
Cake/pie::	cake
French toast/french fries::	french fries
Strawberries/blueberries::	strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool::	ocean
Hugs/kisses::	kisses
Cookies/muffins::	cookies
p33n/bewbz::	bewbz
Wallet/pocket::	pocket
Window/door::	window
Emo/goth::	gun
Pink/purple::	pink
Cat/dog::	cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve::	shorttt
Pants/shorts::	pants
Winter break/spring break::	winter break
Spring/autumn::	autumn
Clouds/clear sky::	clouds
Moon/mars::	moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?::	many
What are their names?::	........i wont attempt this.
Do you have a best friend?::	i don't think so, no.
Have you ever liked one of your friends?::	yes.
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?::	girl
Have you ever lost a friend?::	yes
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?::	no
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?::	gonads & strife
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?::	yes
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?::	i do a WHOLE bunch of interesting things.. but i walked into my friends class and i said "EVERYONE ELSE IN HERE SUCKS!!, i love josh bremner forever, k thanks bye" and left.
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?::	nothing.
Do you miss any of your old friends?::	nah
What friend have you known the longest?::	jessica
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?::	no.
If so, what is it?::
How often do you spend time with your friends?::	alot.
Do any of your friends drive?::	yes
Has a friend of yours ever died?::	nope.
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?::	i dont know
What do you think your friends think of you?::	that im funny and cute.. they tell me all the time
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?::	no
If you have, with who?::	---
Are you single?::	yes.
Are you in a relationship?::	---
If so, for how long?::	---
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::	i spose.
What is your idea of the best date?::	idk.
What was your first kiss like?::	fucking disgusting.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?::	13 ahahaa
Do you think love is a load of shit?::	yes, i do.
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?::	i don't know, haha.
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?::	yes
Have you ever been dumped?::	no
Have you ever dumped someone?::	yes
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?::	ahaha
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers::	meh
Hat::	idk
Hard::	I FUCKING HATE THESE THINGS, IM NOT DOING THEM I REFUSE.
Free::
Space::
Taste::
Good charlotte::
Red::
Deep::
Heart::
Cord::
Cheese::
Rain::
Work::
Pedal::
Head::
Bed::
Fluff::
Hardcore::
Race::
Knife::
Jump::
I....
am::
want::
need::
crave::
love::
hate::
did::
feel::
miss::
am annoyed by::
would rather::
am tired of::
will always::
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?::	nothign specific.
What time is it now?::	10:49 pm.
What day is it?::	monday.
Whens the last time you called someone?::	today.
How much money do you have right now?::	10 bucks
Are you hungry?::	nah
Whatcha doin?::	i just blew my nose. yummm.
Do you like parades?::	no
Do you like the moon?::	no
What are you going to do when youre done with this?::	showering.
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?::	FUCK YES.
If you could have any magical power what would it be?::	idk.
Have you ever had a picnic?::	yes
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::	yes
What about sock em boppers?::	yes
Are you wearing any socks right now?::	nope
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?::	actually, yes. im class clown material & everybody knows it:)
pretty?::	sometimes
sarcastic?::	yeah.
lazy?::	hell yeah.
hyper?::	sometimes.
friendly?::	no. not unless i think your hot or i wanna know you.
evil?::	no
smart?::	kinda
strong?::	no
talented?::	no
dorky?::	kinda;)
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high::
skip::
dance::
lonely::
pen::
flower::
window::
psycho::	..me.
brain freeze::
orange::
sassy::
jelly::
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide::	for
love::	against
drunk drivers::	for
airplanes::	for
war::	for
canada::	for
united states::	for
rock music::	for
gay marriage::	for
school::	for
surveys::	for
parents::	for
cars::	for
killing::	for
britney spears::	haha. against.
coffee::	for
pants::	for
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?::	yes!
Play strip poker?::	yes
Run away?::	yes
Curse at a teacher?::	yes, i have many a time.
Not take a shower for a week?::	one time i did when i tried to dred my hair. but now, no.
Ask someone out?::	yes.
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?::	no. you dont like me, FKKN BITE ME.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?::	yes
Go scuba diving?::	no
Write a book?::	no
Become a rockstar?::	no
Have casual sex?::	dont know yet.
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?::	ehhh, im not running upstairs & looking.
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?::	last weekend
What kind of computer do you have?::	dont knowwww
What grade are you in?::	8th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?::	yes
Or just make out?::	yes
How many posters do you have in your room?::	none
How many cds do you have?::	none
What time is it now?::	10:54 pm

extremely long survey brought to you by BZOINK!

Tue, 04 May 2004 21:03:30 GMT

today was a shitty day, i cut.. im a fucking idiot. last night i stayed at kristens and we pushed my bellybutton ring back through. yeah.

Sun, 02 May 2004 14:30:30 GMT

yesterday:
went to ashleys
met vanessa & sarah:)
went to the battle of the bands
came home late

my bellybutton closed up.

its chads birthday today. i probally won't even get to see him.

i go back to court on may 30. everythings gonna be good. i swear. my mom and me are doing good now, its her and jasmine that are having problems.

going to go see whats going on for today. its so nice out!

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 19:53:26 GMT

my first day back @ school was kick ass!

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 22:10:45 GMT

im HOME. they gave me one last chance. im on intense probation. i guess i'm good now. i fucking hated it there & i'll never go back. ugh. fuck that place i'm never talking about it. anyway- i got my hair cut a bunch.. it's good to be home. chads changed. i don't think i like it.

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 22:54:00 GMT

right now im at a foster home, i have to type fast though.... im going back 2 the childrens home soon............ ill be out thursday, and then uhm either going home or back here. i like it here.. its real nice. ill write when i can.. ahh.. :/ fuck life...

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 18:07:22 GMT

this is my last entry for a while, i'm guessing. tommorow im getting sent away. i'm grounded, so i cant even hang out with my friends one last time. this.. this hurts. ive been crying and cutting for a while. i'm going to miss chad so much.. i'm going to miss everyone so much.. except my mother. my mom hurts me. i cant stand her. knowone helps me anymore. not even my therapist. i doubt anyone will even read this. do you think.. me leaving to a home is best? best for me. i know teenagers say "oh, i want my mom to fucking die!!" but.. i guess im not normal. this has been going on for a long time.youve done nothing for me. ever since my father died ive been her excuse for all her problems. and believe me, she has ALOT of problems. we have these house rules, and she breaks them. she breaks them and when me or my sisters confront her, she'll yell at us. she has a fucked up mind. she is a fucked up person, and i despise her. she walked out of her room yesterday and saw me cutting, and she said "im not gonna stop you, if your gonna do it, do it" she will deny it to you. but me and my sister both heard it. jasmine tried to stick up for me and she got slapped. we cant even stick up for ourselves anymore. shes a fucking alchoholic. and she says everything is my fault. of course alot is my fault, that goes on in my body. but HER life isnt MY fucking fault! its hers! i didnt do anything to her. im a child. im 14 years old. im a little pathetic girl. i know when i have children i will never treat them like this. i feel sorry for my sisters. sometimes i feel sorry for myself. am i really nothing? am i really just another person? this whole entry makes me sound like a fucking idiot. i may be a child, but im not immature. ive lived through some messed up shit, and i continue to live through it. im getting put in a fucking HOME for gods fucking sake. my friends wont matter there, my family wont matter there. ill probally get the shit beat out of me or something. i am so fucked up. i need more help then a home. i need to die. im one of those... obvious suicide cases.